It all started when I knocked down my pink-rimmed eyeglasses. I had to replace them because I can’t see properly without my eyeglasses; I am born with near sightedness, an eye deficiency so I must wear my glasses to see things clearly, especially during class. As I was saying, I bought new eyeglasses but instead of replacing my old pair with the usual pink rims or something that’s girly enough for me, I bought silver-rimmed eyeglasses. Everyone was quite surprised, because not only I knocked down my glasses, but also because they thought I would wear the distinct hue that they associated with my personality-Pink.

Since First Year High school, I’ve been with the same, old me- Pink lover, kikay, and Bubbly. It’s not that I grew tired of the old me, It’s just that I don’t want to be this ME forever, and I can’t be ME forever. I don’t want to regret in the end, I don’t want to even up not knowing who I am inside. I’m tired of living with that image that the people around me have been given me, I’m tired of living up to that image just because I was to chicken to try new things, just because I was scared to fail, just because I was scared that they won’t understand.

I tried living up that image, I tried being me but they won’t just accept it. Good thing that I’ve realized that I don’t have to please them, that If they can’t even accept me at my worst, then they don’t even deserve to be with me when I’m at my best. Few months from now, I’m going into a bigger adventure, College.

However, it’s not the destiny that counts, it’s the journey that matters. I know that when I reach College, I’ll meet people with different strokes, different traits that can either make or break them and I don’t want to be the girl who plays too safe.

I used to hate change. All my life, I’ve been playing on the safe side, too afraid to get hurt, to hurt to move on but now, I’ve realized that change is the only thing that’s undeviating… and change is inextricable. We can never avoid change.

I want to get in touch with my inner self; I want to know myself better. I don’t want to live with the voice that they gave me, ’cause I have my own, and from now on, I’ll have my own set of trail. I will now longer follow the track that they want me to take, I will no longer compromise what’s in my heart, I will live my life MY way, I will no longer allow anyone to step up on me.

So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me- and You won't succeed. I’m going to live my life that way that I want to, make my own decisions, be my own me, and yes, my eyeglasses shall be the start.

I want this blog to become a decent one, because I am trying my best to make every reader's soul happier whenever they came across to my blog, but sometimes, we all have to let go of all the rage that we've been feeling-or we'll explode. I'm not perfect, and I know how to bitch really, really well. I don't want to talk about this, but this thought keeps on haunting me inside, It makes me bleed more within. However, just to remind each and everyone of you that I'm just a human being I have my own limitations... I'm letting it off my chest...

I HATE YOU:

~Mga taong masyadong mataas ng Pride dahil nakapag aral lang sa sikat na school.

~Mga taong pinapalaki ang maliit ng issue na feeling naman nila eh involved sila.

~Mga taong grabe makapintas as if naman na perfect sila.

~Mga taong mahilig mang judge as if naman na hinihingi opinion nila.

~Mga taong mahilig mangbintang as if naman na alam nila ang nangyari.

~Mga one-sided na tao na pilit pang nakikisawsaw para masabing may opinion sila.

~Mga taong mahilig magpasimula ng kampihan pero sasabihin neutral sila at gusto nila ng UNITY.

~Mga taong sinasabing friend ka nila pero titirahin ka patalikod.

~Mga taong mahilig magpalipat lipat ng partido.

~Mga taong walang paninindigan.

~Mga taong linta na didikit sayo pag may kailangan;iiwanan ka sa ere pag wala ka ng use,sisiraan ka pa sa huli.

~Mga taong mahilig manira sa kapwa pero sila pa ang galit kapag hindi sila nagtagumpay sa balak nila.

~Mga taong inggit na inggit sa status ng iba kaya maninira na lang as if naman na convincing sila.

~Mga taong hindi ka kayang tanggapin kaya pipilitin ka nilang magbago;pag hindi ka nagbago, ikaw pa ang walang pakisama.

~Mga taong nagmamarunong. Period.

~Mga taong feel na feel na friend ka nila dahil sikat/maganda ka pero pag kailangan mo sila,biglang nawawala.

~Mga taong hindi marunong mag thank you man lang.

~Mga taong walang delicadeza at utang na loob.

~Mga mang aagaw ng boyfriend na feeling naman nila eh mauubusan sila ng lalaki.

Now that I've let it all out, I feel better. Wala akong pinapatamaan to anyone in general, it's more of a reminder that we must be considerate and sensitive to everyone else. Sometimes, we become one-sided; we turn into bitches/whores without even realizing it. So please, bear with me. Sabi nga ni Yeng… "..Tao lang ako..."