"Destiny is shaped through the choices that we make"

How relevant to me...Women are really pickle-minded. I have to agree with that; especially in my situation right now. It has been 5 weeks since I made this heart breaking decision and for 5 weeks, that decision continues haunt me- it troubles my mind, it breaks my heart, it made me have second thoughts, it made me afraid of what might happen and most of all, it influences me to give up. Maybe you are wondering about my "decision" so to avoid confusion (and because I love you too much!) Err, it's like this... I'm love this guy but I don't think that he loves me as well (I swear, I don't know!) and then all of a sudden I have to make a decision it's either I wait and get hurt or Let go and move on. And I chose the latter one. I chose to let go not because I want to but it's because I have to- I have to because I want to be happier. I have no other choice but move on, I have to take the risk and get a life but Life is a game and after I made the decision of letting him go, At the back of my mind I kept on asking myself on what MIGHT have happen if I didn't chose the latter choice. I took the risk of forgetting him without even saying a word. I prayed and prayed asking God to help me clear my mind, asking God if I made the right choice asking God for help because no matter how much I lied and tell my friends It's no longer "him" that I love, in my hearts of hearts I know that what I'm saying is crap. It sucks though, I often ask myself 'what could've happen if I didn't let him go, Will I be happier?' It sucks and it breaks my heart. I just hope that I made the right decision. I just hope that I took the right path. I just hope that someone can help to stop this feeling because to tell you honestly, I have no idea on how to make the hurting stop.

..and She prepared for the Party!