"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall."—Confucius

I've had my fair share of heart breaks, and I've broken some hearts, too. Last year, I also wrote a blog entry about love, loving, and getting hurt. I know this is just the "Painful past" but I believe that I have to write about this, I went through that phase for a reason, and I believe that THIS is the reason. Therefore, here's my story..

A few weeks before that Saturday, We've fighting a lot, we're having problems but I never thought that something such as what happened will actually take place... and so, I gathered every ounce of courage left in my system, I called him, I don't want to detail everything but next thing I know is that my heart was bleeding because of what he said. I ended up crying my heart out, not minding how anxious my mom is... For nearly a month, I tried to live with out him but the painful truth is, I'm still searching for the blade who made my heart bleed. I tried my best to look happy, to look fine but things just got even sourer. It was only then that I realized that the kindest thing that I can do for myself is to accept what happened, and I kept on praying to God for my healing and he did. I never questioned God when I went through that kind of hurting. After nearly a month, while talking on the phone with him, he said those magic words that replenished all the hurting that he caused me, and the rest is history.

What I'm trying to say is that, When you're in a heart break just like what I went through, Don't even question God. He pushed you out of your comfort zone because he wants you to become stronger. It's even stated that "I love you just that way you are, but I love you so much that I can't bear to see you that way-God". Once in our lives, we must become poor souls to be able to see how blessed we are, we need to become needy so that we'll see God's grace. When we pray, we often ask God for good grades, a better love life, and the like but for a second thought, have we ever thanked God for all the luxuries that he’s been giving us? Moreover, why do we always have to ask for more when we have enough? WHY CAN’T WE THANK GOD ENOUGH?

The bottom line is,we always wanted to live a carefree life, we search for the perfect life but what we fail to see is that we can never have everything at the same time, we must learn how to work hard for it. It's not because we're lucky enough, It's because we deserve it. Think about those hearts that we've broken in the past.. think about those who broke our heart.. I guess it's the right time to reflect. Even if Holy week's over, we still have 7 weeks to reflect. Think, reflect, and decide. Who knows,maybe you still have a bruise in your heart that isn't healing correctly.

And to those that I've hurted, to those hearts that I've broken.. I'm sorry for all the pain that I brought you. I'm praying for your quick healing.

..and She prepared for the Party!