I hate this predation thing in our ecosystem. and when I say hate, I mean it. I waited for this Pupa in my Tita’s garden to become a butterfly, only to realize that the mean ants, red ants to be exact, ate the Pupa. Sigh. It’s a shame that a butterfly-to-be was deprived of seeing the world. I thought about this over and over while eating lunch, I pity the poor creature. The caterpillar made several efforts, trying to find place for his make over, hoping that he’d be a beautiful butterfly and the mean red ants ate him while he’s inside the cocoon, leaving him defenseless and eating up every hope that he ever had.

No,I’m not turning into an Eco Girl, it’s just that similar things happen to each one of us, the situation I mean. We’re always hoping for the best, striving really damn hard for us to live, and after finding the perfect comfort zone, someone will pull us really down, leaving us as defenseless as the Pupa. Giving the situation a second look, we’re way lucky enough, way, way luckier than the Pupa because our life doesn’t end there, no red ants will take our lives but it’s us. We always end up eating every hop that we ever had because of a single mistake, a damn single mistake. We often feel bad about ourselves after our failing and we refuse to take a second chance, we refuse to leave our cocoon even if it’s already time to spread our wing like a butterfly.

The thought of the Pupa made me think of my experiences, about my dreams, my plans. I can even remember how chicken I was to face the many changes in my life, I refused to see the truth and assumed that I’d rather believe in a lie than leave out of my comfort zone. I had enough failings, which served as my struggle to become a butterfly. I wanted to stay in my own cocoon for as long as I can be there- but no, now I know I can’t. I cannot remain in my comfort zone forever, and yes, there must be a reason why a turning sweet sixteen girl like me is so giddy into seeing that pupa turns in to a butterfly only to realize that it’s dead already. Now I know. It’s not a co-accidence, it’s fate.

Maybe it’s about time for me to get out of my cocoon, maybe it’s God's way of saying that my wings are ready, maybe it’s an indication that I MUST spread my wings and fly. As what Buzz Light Year says, “To infinity and beyond”- I must, with all my might, conquer the life outside my comfort zone. It’s about time for a life changing change.

..and She prepared for the Party!