It all started when I knocked down my pink-rimmed eyeglasses. I had to replace them because I can’t see properly without my eyeglasses; I am born with near sightedness, an eye deficiency so I must wear my glasses to see things clearly, especially during class. As I was saying, I bought new eyeglasses but instead of replacing my old pair with the usual pink rims or something that’s girly enough for me, I bought silver-rimmed eyeglasses. Everyone was quite surprised, because not only I knocked down my glasses, but also because they thought I would wear the distinct hue that they associated with my personality-Pink.

Since First Year High school, I’ve been with the same, old me- Pink lover, kikay, and Bubbly. It’s not that I grew tired of the old me, It’s just that I don’t want to be this ME forever, and I can’t be ME forever. I don’t want to regret in the end, I don’t want to even up not knowing who I am inside. I’m tired of living with that image that the people around me have been given me, I’m tired of living up to that image just because I was to chicken to try new things, just because I was scared to fail, just because I was scared that they won’t understand.

I tried living up that image, I tried being me but they won’t just accept it. Good thing that I’ve realized that I don’t have to please them, that If they can’t even accept me at my worst, then they don’t even deserve to be with me when I’m at my best. Few months from now, I’m going into a bigger adventure, College.

However, it’s not the destiny that counts, it’s the journey that matters. I know that when I reach College, I’ll meet people with different strokes, different traits that can either make or break them and I don’t want to be the girl who plays too safe.

I used to hate change. All my life, I’ve been playing on the safe side, too afraid to get hurt, to hurt to move on but now, I’ve realized that change is the only thing that’s undeviating… and change is inextricable. We can never avoid change.

I want to get in touch with my inner self; I want to know myself better. I don’t want to live with the voice that they gave me, ’cause I have my own, and from now on, I’ll have my own set of trail. I will now longer follow the track that they want me to take, I will no longer compromise what’s in my heart, I will live my life MY way, I will no longer allow anyone to step up on me.

So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me- and You won't succeed. I’m going to live my life that way that I want to, make my own decisions, be my own me, and yes, my eyeglasses shall be the start.

..and She prepared for the Party!

I want this blog to become a decent one, because I am trying my best to make every reader's soul happier whenever they came across to my blog, but sometimes, we all have to let go of all the rage that we've been feeling-or we'll explode. I'm not perfect, and I know how to bitch really, really well. I don't want to talk about this, but this thought keeps on haunting me inside, It makes me bleed more within. However, just to remind each and everyone of you that I'm just a human being I have my own limitations... I'm letting it off my chest...

I HATE YOU:

~Mga taong masyadong mataas ng Pride dahil nakapag aral lang sa sikat na school.

~Mga taong pinapalaki ang maliit ng issue na feeling naman nila eh involved sila.

~Mga taong grabe makapintas as if naman na perfect sila.

~Mga taong mahilig mang judge as if naman na hinihingi opinion nila.

~Mga taong mahilig mangbintang as if naman na alam nila ang nangyari.

~Mga one-sided na tao na pilit pang nakikisawsaw para masabing may opinion sila.

~Mga taong mahilig magpasimula ng kampihan pero sasabihin neutral sila at gusto nila ng UNITY.

~Mga taong sinasabing friend ka nila pero titirahin ka patalikod.

~Mga taong mahilig magpalipat lipat ng partido.

~Mga taong walang paninindigan.

~Mga taong linta na didikit sayo pag may kailangan;iiwanan ka sa ere pag wala ka ng use,sisiraan ka pa sa huli.

~Mga taong mahilig manira sa kapwa pero sila pa ang galit kapag hindi sila nagtagumpay sa balak nila.

~Mga taong inggit na inggit sa status ng iba kaya maninira na lang as if naman na convincing sila.

~Mga taong hindi ka kayang tanggapin kaya pipilitin ka nilang magbago;pag hindi ka nagbago, ikaw pa ang walang pakisama.

~Mga taong nagmamarunong. Period.

~Mga taong feel na feel na friend ka nila dahil sikat/maganda ka pero pag kailangan mo sila,biglang nawawala.

~Mga taong hindi marunong mag thank you man lang.

~Mga taong walang delicadeza at utang na loob.

~Mga mang aagaw ng boyfriend na feeling naman nila eh mauubusan sila ng lalaki.

Now that I've let it all out, I feel better. Wala akong pinapatamaan to anyone in general, it's more of a reminder that we must be considerate and sensitive to everyone else. Sometimes, we become one-sided; we turn into bitches/whores without even realizing it. So please, bear with me. Sabi nga ni Yeng… "..Tao lang ako..."

..and She prepared for the Party!

Hello everyone! just to give you some clarification, I'm officially fine, I'm not heart broken-not now. I wasn't able to update my blog because:

Physics ate my time.
It took me a while to think of what to blog.
I was too lazy to right.
My emotional baggage kills me.

I know,I know. I just said that I'm not heart broken- because I'm okay now. The thing is, within 10 months, I'll be leaving my school, and when that time comes, I want to have the closure-everything which hurt me, broke me. I've been acting really bitchy since last week, because of this freaking emotional baggage. I want to express my rage, but I don't want to hurt those who HURT me. I don't want to BREAK those who BROKE me. I don't want to be rude- but they're forcing me to do so.

In addition to my major sama ng loob, my freaking YM caught a virus,so I can't give away messages to my friends.Kamusta naman ang kamalasan?!

I will be taking my UPCAT also this coming August 4, 12:30. I'll be taking the test at the Building of Architecture. So if you want to see me in flesh, go and find me.lol.

Anyway, thank you for those who cared and still cares,thank you to those who reminds me that despite of my roller coaster life, I still have my own reasons to be happy. thank you for those who keeps on believing in me. and to those who keeps on reading my blog.


Wo Ai Ni, Jiu Xiang Lao Shu Ai Dami. :)

..and She prepared for the Party!

Yes, Guys. I had a super duper extended vacation. But come on, Give me break! You know how cruel my teachers can be…and I believe that I deserve that long vacation. Now that my classes are officially on, I would say that this early, forgive me if I won’t blog, believe me, I would love to write an entry each single day but my lifestyle just won’t let me do so. I have a rocky year ahead.

I am voted as Scouting Organization’s Quarter Master, which means that I have to maintain the cleanliness, orderliness, and other “ness” possible inside our office. In addition to that, if something is not in order, even if it’s not my fault, I will always be the one to blame, but I guess it’s not that bad, since I won by Majority. lol. I am also the head of the Membership committee of Red Cross Youth, CMIC council. As they say, Great Positions always come with big responsibilities… and I’ll always be thankful for those who voted for me, because I know, they wouldn’t vote for me if I they don’t trust me at all.

I’m glad that most of my friends were still in the same section as mine, and now that we’re the seniors, We have to be good examples to the younger batches, isn’t that ironic? We actually love breaking laws. Only two of my friends weren’t in the same section as mine, they were transferred to the other section while most of us managed to be in the cream section.

It’s hard though, because this year, I have numerous things to make my life turn from bad to worse. Want to know what are they? Take a peek:

+ My Freaking Application forms for College. In fact, Hannah, Michelle, and I had to harass Miss Evangeline (I hope I got her name right) for my application for UP. There’s a very little chance for me to pass the UPCAT but I have to take that test so the next time that I’ll take another test, I know where to put my hands on.

+My new Positions. Enough Said.

+ The One Hour Subject Rule. The School administration imposed a new rule where in all subjects will be given an hour. So kamusta naman ang Physics,Calculus, at English with Sir Jhun na isang oras? Can you say torture?

+20 minute break. I so hate that. As in. I have 2 breaks, but only 20 minutes each, so how can we possibly east right with that schedule?


I know, this is going to be loooong school year for me, but I know, I’ll get through this. Life is tough, but I am tougher.

..and She prepared for the Party!

It’s been a while since I last wrote a decent entry; it took me a while, a long while to organize my thoughts, because deep inside me, there is an empty space which bleeds like there’s no tomorrow. Okay, okay. I know, you wouldn’t want to hear me and see me turn all grumpy, grouchy, and insensitive.

I’m going to school in less than a week and I can’t help but feel excited! I feel so overjoyed that finally, I’ll have something to run into when I start to feel the emptiness again. School still means learning, This year is going to be my last and final year at high school, and after this year, life will never be the same again. I won’t come to the same school, I will not wear the same uniform again, but mostly I won’t be with the same people again. High School taught me to become strong; I faced numerous betrayals, back stabbings, and lies. I experienced the taste of first love as well as the stings of the first heart break. In High School, I met different kinds of personalities, some blended well with mine, many hurt me, but few made a difference.

Things that are going on right now may not be the best, it’s rocky and painful but I know that this way is the way to happiness. There’s still a lot of things that can happen, a lot of things to look forward to, and I won’t become all grumpy just because some jerk broke my heart. No way, hell no!

Things that I’m excited about:

+ That new, hot, hot Physics Teacher. I want to meet that yumminess who’ll surely make me love Physics.

+ Learn more. I’m in love with learning and trying new things, I love misadventures!

+New Badges. I want to attain more badges, since I’m graduating; I want to wear my sash loud and proud with new badges that will come from my own effort.

+New People. Different strokes, different folks, I’d love to meet people of different shapes and sizes.

+Sweet Sixteen. I want to be sixteen forever! I want to enjoy my birthday, with or without him.

+ New Crushes. The prospective of new hot, hot schoolmates is very high. Now, that will make me look forward to every school day.

+Allowance. Enough said.

+ Forget Him. Okay, this shouldn’t be included but I can’t help it, I know that the more puyatan night I’ll have, slowly; I’ll stop thinking about him. I might be running away from the problem but I have no other choice.

Things I’m not excited about:

+Late Night review sessions which will last until 2am.
+ Pressure.
+People who’ll ask me “Kamusta na kayo?”. I swear, if anyone asks me that question, I’m going to slit that person’s throat.
+Getting wet because of the rain.
+Cramming again.


For everyone, Keep in mind that the key in learning is loving to learn more, never settle for second best, always aim to become the best. Remember the song from Princess Diaries?

“Make a wish, take a chance, make a change and BREAKAWAY…”

..and She prepared for the Party!

Beautiful song, but I can't appreciate the lyrics 'cause I feel so empty.Sigh. I don't know why, I shouldn't be feeling like this anyway, because as far as I can remember, few days ago, I even wrote a blog entry that I'm okay..-but that's what I thought..

I can't understand why I'm still feeling this emptiness inside.. It even makes me feel inferior about myself, I'm starting to think and feel that I'm not the kind of girl that a guy takes seriously....

My past relationship didn't end well.. because I still don't know why he walked out of my life..

and I hate it.and Hate it 'cause no matter what I do, No matter where I go, everything reminds me of him. If only I could teach my heart to love somebody else,I will.

Because I can't understand why I'm hurting like this but still, I cannot let go of what we've had..

..and She prepared for the Party!

49 days from now, I'm going to welcome a new chapter of my life, 49 days from now, my transition from baby to Lady will come true... because 49 days from now, I will be turning Sweet Sixteen already! Yay!

I'm quite excited about this before, because I thought that when my sweet sixteen comes, I may not have the grandest birthday celebration but I have everything that can possibly make me happy-but I was wrong, Everything that makes me smile was taken away from me before I knew it, and it hurts.

Actually, I never thought that I'd make some wish list again, like I did last year 'cause I can't even find the reason to be excited about my birthday, but still, Sweet Sixteen is still Sweet Sixteen and I have no plans of not making it a birthday to remember, besides, I can only be Sixteen once!

When I was 13, I have a clear picture of who I am already when I'm 16, I thought that I'd have a boyfriend who'll treat me like a princess when I turn 16. and let’s not forget that bunch of Roses that will be delivered at my front door.

But now, 49 days and it seems like my picture of how my birthday's going to be is far from what I thought I would be. But I just don't care, with or without a boyfriend, I'm going to make my birthday a day to remember!

So Let's go to my idea of my Sweet Sixteen….Actually, I want to have the following:

..and She prepared for the Party!