I haven't been online for a while and yet Offline life is not as boring as you can imagine and I managed pretty well. How did I survive? I don't know either. I feel bad because I wasn't able to go to the fiesta, (last Sunday April 23 2006) Erika invited me kasi. I wasn't able to go because I have to wait for Lola Tis (wife of my maternal grandmother's brother) for my 'gown fitting' for Tita Ching's wedding but it's okay, I just realized that I have to bear with it. lol. I also cut my hair. It's pretty short, really; my hair is like 3-4 inches shorter and believe me, it did affect me. No kidding. Before you say "it's just hair, it will grow back" I'm not going nuts because of my hair. It's just that for like a year I lived with my long hair and now, it's gone! Completely gone! Even my little cousin, Mika was surprised and shocked. Is it really that bad? Well, remember the time that Mulan cut her hair using her father's sword? it's just as same as that! The only difference is that my hair is worse than Mulan's! lol. So it is really bad. Whatever. By the way, since summer is here I suggest that you grab a copy of the April ish of Candy since they have good bikinis there. Kisses! I'll be back to my “Art of Doing Nothing” moment. Will blog soon to keep you posted.

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but I have nothing interesting to say. What a meaningful,heart warming speech!lol. How are you guys doing? As for me, to tell you honestly, I'm still hurting. but on the other hand I know I'm going to get over it, over him. I want to watch my sassy girl before the school year starts. Weird ko noh? I dunno.I want to move on badly This is my choice, no turning back this time. Btw, just a piece of news... I might me going to Laguna or Cavite this week so Maybe I won't be able to make a post but please do keep my blog alive. Kisses!

*Maybe I should be more careful in what I say, damn, dood!My mom's actually reading my posts!lol.

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"Destiny is shaped through the choices that we make"

How relevant to me...Women are really pickle-minded. I have to agree with that; especially in my situation right now. It has been 5 weeks since I made this heart breaking decision and for 5 weeks, that decision continues haunt me- it troubles my mind, it breaks my heart, it made me have second thoughts, it made me afraid of what might happen and most of all, it influences me to give up. Maybe you are wondering about my "decision" so to avoid confusion (and because I love you too much!) Err, it's like this... I'm love this guy but I don't think that he loves me as well (I swear, I don't know!) and then all of a sudden I have to make a decision it's either I wait and get hurt or Let go and move on. And I chose the latter one. I chose to let go not because I want to but it's because I have to- I have to because I want to be happier. I have no other choice but move on, I have to take the risk and get a life but Life is a game and after I made the decision of letting him go, At the back of my mind I kept on asking myself on what MIGHT have happen if I didn't chose the latter choice. I took the risk of forgetting him without even saying a word. I prayed and prayed asking God to help me clear my mind, asking God if I made the right choice asking God for help because no matter how much I lied and tell my friends It's no longer "him" that I love, in my hearts of hearts I know that what I'm saying is crap. It sucks though, I often ask myself 'what could've happen if I didn't let him go, Will I be happier?' It sucks and it breaks my heart. I just hope that I made the right decision. I just hope that I took the right path. I just hope that someone can help to stop this feeling because to tell you honestly, I have no idea on how to make the hurting stop.

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I'm happy.happy.happy. The School Admin released the cards today and I'm pretty surprised yet happy.

Here's my list:
Filipino:87
English:92
Math:82
Science:83
Elective:90
Social Studies:89
Mapeh/Scouting:92
Computer:92
TLE:93
CL:87
EP:94

Gen.Ave: 88%

Someone pass me the tissue! I never ever expected to have such grades. I mean, I never ever took my studies seriously. But I guess, I'm really blessed! Happy.happy.Happy. I just can't ask for more. I swear. I soooo happy!!

Kisses everyone!

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yah, my History teacher said na pinag-aaralan daw ng US ung Mars and this one moon sa Jupiter yata... Nakakita sila ng life forms...and nag-pplano na raw na mag-expand ng colonies ang US sa mga planets na un...

When I heard this, naalala ko ung anime na Galaxy Angels! wahah... This may not happen in our lifetime, but you think talagang someday, ang humankind eh titira na sa ibang planets? And imbis na countries ang lipatan, magiging Mars na or something sa space?

What do you think of that?

from here

you think that is really possible?I think so.

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guys can you vote for my friend Jhesca?

http://she.pink-blush.org/random-ation

vote for her naman!please?this means a lot to me.

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From:
Yves BLiND
Date:
Wednesday, April 12, 2006 5:26:00 AM
Subject:
hi
Message:
hi....maybe tomorrow I won't get a chance to say dis...." ur the prettiest girl I've ever seen " Tnx for reading.....Tke cre ang God Bless


Someone said so! Well...whatever!At least someone actually appreciated me for being me.lol.




That's my lil' cousing, Mika a.k.a. Jen Junior. Dahil lahat daw ng pagka brattinela nya,She got it from me.In that Shot she's looking somewhere.This was taken before I went to Tanay last November 05. ;)




one of her pa-cute shots. Sa room ko toh.

How are you guys doing?loving summer? enjoy it to the max a busy years might await you. ;)

kisses!

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I seriously think the happy gurl in me is back.I don't know how it happened but out of nowhere I can feel that rare feeling again.It has been a long 10 months for me,though. The past school year challenged me,physically,emotionally. I've had enough and I was too fed up to settle my thoughts and then one sunny day(lol!) I just regain out of mithingness...that rare feeling again. All of a sudden... I'm happy once again.Maybe being away from all those problems is all I need after all. ;) I feel better now and i hope that this "rare feeling" will stay forever, It's not because I'm afraid to be lonesome... It's just that I want to be happy na. I'm fed up of always being the one who have to suffer. Ayoko na. I want to live a happier life, a better life style and I want real friends. Not the ones na after they got what they need for you, iiwan ka. I want friends who will trust me and appreciate me, not the ones who will not believe you and refer you as a liar, na all they can see is your imperfectness. May ganun pa ba?kung meron,can you please be mine.LOL

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Seriously I do. Summer is here and yet boredom is killing me and that’s another weird statement brought to you by me! LOL. I can still remember those times that I prayed for summer vacation to come because of my dreaded Algebra take home Quiz. I’m like “Summer Vacation please come. Early … I really need you!” and now, summer is here and I can’t help but feel blue. I miss the pressure that I used to encounter every time I have to rush and pass my projects on time. I miss the hell weeks and the hell day that forbids me to sleep for 8 hours. I miss the discussions that sharpened my opinions. I miss being late and being scared to death because for sure Ma’am Tin will be furious. I miss getting +5 from Sir Tony. I miss playing Jang Guem while Sir Tony is my Lady Han. I miss seeing my crush and getting kilig to the bones when He looks on my way. I miss ate’s kare-kare and fried chicken not to mention their bagoong that I really love. I miss the big vanity, full-length mirror in the scouting room. I miss eating siomai and pugo after a long, stressful day. I miss getting on duty and wearing the super Girl Scout uniform. I miss calling Jobelle “Ate Giraffe”. I miss the pressure, the hell weeks and most of all-the people behind my sophomore rollercoaster ride and I can’t believe I will miss those things/persons this much. Summer Vacation, I guess you heard me and I wish you didn’t but as the saying goes, “When Life gives you lemons, Make Lemonade” I guess all I can do now is to make the most of it. ;)

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They usually refer to PBB(Pinoy Big Brother) even during its first season as the “Teleserye ng totoong buhay” at first I’m like “Wtf?” because I admit, I’m not a fan and I think that show is crap but not when I realized its real concept, the deeper concept that is.

I think and I do believe that PBB is indeed the teleserye of real life. Why did I say so? This involves lots of explanation so please be patient.
It goes like this…. In PBB you have the “Big Brother” house, the housemates, the cameras rolling 24/7 even when they are actually bathing and of course, Big Brother. In real life, real outside life we have those as well-but not literally. The cameras rolling where the eyes of God, He can see everything that we do, every single action we conduct and all the violations that we make. Big Brother is God… because he is always on call 24/7. Then, the Big Brother house is our so-called “Mother Earth” and we are the housemates. In PBB, the housemates were called in the “Confession Room” to know their tasks yet in real life, We go to church and listen to the word of God to know our tasks.

This might sound weird but I only realized that out of nothingness.How weird-Slap me.LOL. But then again Don’t you think we should start pulling of our tasks? I guess it’s better to finish it before our eviction Day Comes.

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My new layout is here finally! I'll write tomorrow..promise!MUah!

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