I'm back! I'm Back! I'm Back! Have nothing to kwento anyway..

*Kuya Irah Gave me a rose*

I was really surprised. I'm not expecting him to give me a rose but he made me smile. =)
In fact, I left the rose a Vanessa's place so I have to drag Jhaidy back to Vanessas's place just to get the rose. We even got lost because We are freaking out.;I am freaking out like crazy. My exams are fine, nerve wacking and very brain damaging should I say?
My Birthday's fine-Nothing Much happened and to my surprise-Gosh, I'm already 15! What the?

Almost all my wishes came true and I feel really blessed. Thank you for making my wishes come true,I will never ever forget all of you! *Kisses*

By the way,In the celebration of Linggo ng Wika, I will be blogging using the tagalog language starting on August 1. :)

Mwah,mwah!

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Hello everyone!Forgive me for my wrong grammar.Bad,bad Grammar that is. I MIGHT not be able to update since Monthly Exams' around the corner. (July 26-27)

I have nothing to kwento except for that I don't feel like being the new Associate Editor. I don't know.I guess I should keep it to myself but It's just that even though some people believes that I deserve the title but it feels like I stole the title from someone who deserves it more than I do.More than I'll ever be.

I know I'm bringing myself down again but this is how I feel towards the difference between the two of us. Because of this, Our friendship was even damaged.

I feel sorry for him but I feel so sorry about myself.


Whatever.Will be back after the exams. That's a promise! ;)

Much,Much love from me!

..and She prepared for the Party!

I love the Rain.I love,love the rain. When I was born,That was July 26,1991 to be exact... It was raining hard according to my mom but then again, She was brought to the hospital by my GrandParents. Who Would've thought that 14 years have gone by.. and the baby is already me?

Time passes by really quickly.

Erika's BirthDay(July 12) Celebration was really... weird.Classes was supended and after that significant news,We headed Straight to Erika's house. and..There's no classes the next day.

As for my birthday... I'm not really excited or giddy for it. I don't know. Though last week, I made a request to everyone. Yeah.To everyone. and now..Birthday girl's not even happy about it. What in the world is happening to me?

I'm turning 15 in less that 20 days. 15 in less than 20 days. I think age is just a number. Just a number. Before, I used to believe that every year I must grow up.I must change.

and I did.

When I turned 13, I started feeling insecure about other perfect girls. When I become a teener or teenager, I started to feel bad about myself. It's been 3 years.3 years in my teen year. I still have 4 years to enjoy teenhood. 4 years to be a better person.4 more years to live a happier lifestyle.


I'm still fond of the rain.and as far as I know.. Rainy days will always be my favorite time of the year...and so is my birthday.

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I've been confused lately. You guys know that. I went to church this morning. I rely my fate to him. I know he's the only one who can lead me to the light.I don't know how long will I hold on.All I know now is that I rely everything on his decision.He knows better that I do anyway.I have no Idea on what shall I do,How long will I keep this to myself.I believe that the closure will end this but how can that possibly happen?We don't even talk!I really want to move on and give the other guy a chance. Sigh.

Everything is beautiful in God's own time.I know this will make me a better person.The problems between me and him is such a big thing. The closure will end it all but I don't know if the closure can end the feelings as well. I feel unsure about the things that keeps on bugging me.I don't even know If I'm ready to love again.All I know is thta I'm putting all the risk in God's hands.

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Sigh.This day is effing shocking.

Exibit A:
In the middle of randomness I jokingly asked Daddy Jonathan about the 2 words that *A*(Daddy's Friend) failed to tell me. Guess what? *&#%$&! Mahal kita! I mean, He made me wait for an eternity and.. He loved me all this time! He loves me..but why the hell did he let me slip away from his fingers? I cried after Daddy Told me those words. I can't accpt the fact that He left without even saying a word.

Exibit B:
I told someone a certain Chinese Phrase which means "I'm falling for you but I won't let you know" but unfortuantely, He knows someone who can speak in Mandarin... So He discovered my true feelings. Speaking of Kamalasan.

Yes, *A* loves me, *Someone* loves me. The problem is I want to move on but the ghost of the past keeps on haunting me. I don't know what to do,whom to choose. Erika told me to give *someone* a chance.I don't know.A lot has been happening.

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"I just want you to be happy" Erika told me. She told me she has a surprise for me for my birthday.I feel so confused lately. Someone caught my eye. I met someone..and actually, He's everything-no.He IS more that I asked for. I like him, I wouldn't deny that but the thing is -I am still living in my past that's why I couldn't move forward. I tried to forget him but I still find my self wishing to be with him. I'm still believing that one day he'll find a way for us but the fairytale is over...Things changed.Feelings hurted and most of all-My hopes were shattered. As for that someone..He is actually someone who *I think* really deserves my love but the thing is I am still attached to my past. He left like a jerk but I still find myslef thinking of him; I still find my self hoping that he'll kiss my tears away.I wanted to move forward but the unfinished closure between him and I makes me want to run back to him, hug him and never let him go!

Sigh. me estoy cayendo aún más en amor con usted, pero mi pasado todavía se rezaga.

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SuperMan already made a comeback-So Am I!hahaha.I know I can get extra hyper sometimes!
Here's what happened when I refused to say a word:

June 30,06- First meeting with my Immaculata co-staff. and Guess what? I am the new News Editor.I made Erika&Hannah cry because of something that I kept as a secret and now,the facade is broken.,

July 1,06-A seminar conducted by ex-staffs. I also got the chance to bond with Kuya Irah and Kuya Jayson.I love love them!

I thought I won't be back-but I did...and who would've thought that I will be back?I am starting to feel better now,Moving ON-Getting a life...I'm starting to rock again. :P

24 days 'til my birthday?ANy voluteer to make my wishes come true?

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Hey..I'm back!

I'm back and I won't dare say that I am okay now.I just feel better now(thanks Superman!)

Will blog tomorrow!Promise! :P

Btw,

Missed you!

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